2004 is almost over and I thought of dedicating this entry to the wonderful year I've had...this is truly a special year for me because I......

Here are the top 10 things I did this year and I have placed them in order..I want this to be short and sweet...

1. Came close death but escaped it. HA!
2. Had so many great epiphanies.
3. Realized Michael realized....(deep thoughts)
4. Realized my talents (truly)
5. Focused more on my life goals, and planned them out better.
6. Divulged information that I should've kept secret(I'm NOT proud of that
   one..but it was half my secret to let out)
7. Realized my older brother is not perfect
8. Started blogging
9. Became nocturnal...more than usual
10.Experienced somethin g shocking and painful

Did you know there were women pilots during WWII? How amazing is that?They were called WASP. During World War II, a select group of young women pilots became pioneers, heroes, and role models...They were the Women Airforce Service Pilots, WASP, the first women in history trained to fly American military aircraft. I wanted to let people know of these brave women who fought for us during WWII because it is something that is not well known and it should be. So I will do my best. Here are some great pictures of them that I've gathered from the WASP website.

B-26 pilots

"This is not a time when women should be patient. We are in a war and we need to fight it with all our ability and every weapon possible. WOMEN PILOTS, in this particular case, are a weapon waiting to be used."      
    & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;     ;   Eleanor Roosevelt, 1942

B-24 pilots, Left to right, Eloise H. Bailey, Millie D. Dalrymple, Elizabeth M. Magid, Clara Jo M. Stember.

Anabelle Moss

Jacqueline Cochran

A visit from Jackie Cochran

Alice Lovejoy

Life Magazine- Shirley Slade, WASP trainee

Left to right, Marjorie Sanford, Shirley Slade, Evelyn Fletcher, and Elizabeth Gardner, B-26 in background.

Inside the hangar

Doty Eagan and classmates

Ferry pilots

Ready to fly

"You don't need legislation to prove something...you can be whatever you set your heart and head to be, and don't let anybody tell you, you can't be, because 1,078 women pilots did it in World War II."   
    & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p; WASP -Annelle  Henderson  Bulechek  44-w-2

Groundschool- altitude chamber

Mess hall

The ready room

Sunbathing

Physical training

Physical training 2



Ready to march

The wishing well

    The bell

Well, there they are the wonderful women that they are. In my opinion they are some courageous bunch. I hope I have enlightened some of you of thier contributions to WWII. If I was alive back then I'm sure I would have been one of those women, no doubt about it.

    & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;     ;  

I wanted to post up some pics of Michael Stipe so some of you can see what he looks like, and maybe you can see the beauty in him, the way that I do. This guy is the same one that is posted as the background on my blog. He is the singer to the band R.E.M., which stands for rapid eye movement. So here they are and enjoy.

These two are of Michael and Bono, they're pretty good friends.

Below are them two on stage.

These are of Michael at an after party premier for the movie "Beyond the Sea"

    & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;     ;         & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;     ;

Here's a couple of Michael with actor Kevin Spacey at that same party.

These last ones are of Michael out in public, he was just shopping in New York, maybe for gifts.(they were taken before Christmas)

Well that's them, I do have lots more of course, too many to post here though. Anyways I think he is beautiful, what do you guys think of him????
Leave me your opinion. Thanks.

You Are a Dreaming Soul

& nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;     ;         & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;     ;    Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this world So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all... But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you. Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses. Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others. Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.     & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p; Souls you are most compatible with: ;http://www.blogthings.com/new...">Newborn Soul, ;http://www.blogthings.com/pro...">Prophet Soul, and ;http://www.blogthings.com/tra...">Traveler Soul

;http://www.blogthings.com/kin...">What Kind of Soul Are you?

I have missed my doctors appointment, I can't believe it. Has this ever happened to you. Your out late the night before getting drunk having an orgy, then all of a sudden it hits you in 4 in the morning "oh yeah duh, I have a doctors appointment to go to tommorow, sorry ppl have to leave." J/K So I got home went to bed around 5 am, (appointment was for 11 am) and woke up at 11 am. Wouldn't you know it, with my luck, it doesn't surprise me. I wake up exactly at my appointment time. Without the chance to even maybe make it, there is no way I can unless I had a five second transport machine. Damn I knew I should've bought one of those when I was at the store last night. And they were on sale and everything, going like hot cakes, 15% off.

So now I'm stuck between a rock and a........ or is it..???Hummm,I don't remember that saying, oh well. Anyways so now I have to be maybe a walk-in, sounds so intrusive A WALK IN....don't you think. I don't like walking in on other people I think it's rude. I think I'll see if someone cancelled for later today, or I will have to wait for another appointment that may be days away. What's my appoinment for, you ask? Sorry I can't divulge that information, it is private, top secret.

Anywho....no wait, I don't like that word, nevermind , forget you ever saw that.
Anyways I must go and attend to my flock of geese now, they need their feathers trimmed or something or other. J/K

To go or not to go?
I was thinking of attending a Catholic Church for Christmas and maybe for Christmas eve too, only I would be going alone since I don't know any Catholics. I recently converted to Catholosism, so I am going to be scared going alone but I plan on going anyway.

I don't understand why people give gifts for Christmas, I don't think Christmas should be about gift giving and recieving. Or family gatherings and parties. I think it should be about worship and going to church. After all the real meaning of Christmas is Jesus Christ's Birth, it is his birthday. And I think American culture has turned it to something else, do the children even know what Christmas is about? I'm sure in our culture there are many who have no clue. I don't know much about other religions, how they celebrate it, so I can't say much on that.

Don't get me wrong though I do think you should be with your family, but to give gifts and recieve gifts, and to make lists? Why only on this particular day do we do this, is it the only day that we appreciate our families, all of a sudden we realize this? If I was married and had a family we would give gifts to each other all the time for no reason at all, we would do it just because we love each other.

Why are the children made to believe in a person called Santa Clause, a mysterious guy who recieves wish lists from unknown children only to give them a gift if they have been good that year? They should believe in a person called Jesus Christ, he is behind the real meaning of Christmas. I don't understand, is it like that because we were brought up this way in our culture, to believe in Santa, to think of Christmas as a time of gift giving and recieving?

This year my eyes have opened up to the true meaning of this day, and I've realized what American culture has turned it into. It is just a plain horrible thing and I'm sure Jesus would be dissapointed and sad with what our culture has done with it.

STARDOME
My blog is lost in space in
a sense.
Stardome, oh Stardome, where are you?
My home.
it's where my thoughts are placed,
it's where I have the occasional epiphanal phase
it's where I show,
it's where I go
Stardome, oh Stardome,
it's my home

and if my heart it bleeds
then i can shut my door
and think...in sorrow;
that's me out there in a special place
it's my own reflection,
my own face,
called Stardome space
when I have trouble, when I have fear,
I can be comforted
far and near.

Stardome,
Stardome...it is my home

    & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp; THE ORIGINAL


Nothing is better than the original of anything. I was just watching this movie called Miracle on 34th Street on AMC and there was this thing afterwards called backstory, it tells all about the making of the movie in detail and all. They were talking about how the movie did really great at the box office, it opened in July in the summer a movie about christmas in the summer? But guess what it ran for 6 months through christmas and past it. What a wonderful picture, what an amazing screen writer. Wonderful actors, the greatest cast, in my opinion.
They were saying how people did remakes of the movie, like three of them, but none were as good as the original. So true too, I saw the short clips of the others and they were so contrived and fake looking. It was wierd like a scary dream, like a distorted reality of a movie you know to be different. This was one of my most favorite movies as a kid, I always looked forward to it coming on television. I love the scene where the little girl shows Santa the picture of the house she wants, with the swing set in the backyard. It is so magical, and at the end how they actually get that house, the same exact house that's in the picture. It's really uplifting and inspiring for me, it just puts a smile on my face.

1) Sometimes my mind wonders when people are talking to me, i need to stop this.
2) Sometimes I forget what I do with my money right after i put it away, and i am lost to finding it, never to see it again.
3) Sometimes my cat can be really friendly and nice, then the next minute 
he'll claw for my hand or leg and bite me.(arrghh, the evil little thing) *but he still gets his way, I am weak when it comes to disciplining my cat*
4) Sometimes I get these really bad headaches, but then they seem to go 
away as soon as my boyfriend(x)leaves the room.(hummm, i wonder why that happens)
5) Sometimes my mind wonders and i can't seem to finish my posts (i'll give it another minute or so, something more may come to me) *taps foot on floor*..........
6) Sometimes I write stuff down that is important, things i need to do, and of course as soon as I take a look at my list my dog eats it.(arrghh, the evil little thing)*but he still gets his way, I am weak when it comes to disciplining my dog*
Well that's it, my brain is starting to hurt now. Must preserve my  
precious writing skills for lyric/poetry and musical stuff.

1) My car works, my brain doesn't
2) My initiative works, my motivation doesn't
3) My boyfriend works, my boyfriend doesn't (X)
4) My quicktime download worked, my quicktime doesn't
5) My procrastination works, my get up and go doesn't
6) My playtime works, my worktime doesn't
7) My songwriting skills work, completing the songs doesn't
8) My DVD's work, my DVD player doesn't
9) I work, me having a job doesn't        & nbsp;   
10) Me wanting to crawl into a black hole works, coming out for the sun doesn't

Well, I moved again. Back to San Diego, not by choice really though. My mom lives here, so until I find a good job I'll be here. It was wierd too when I was driving here because I didn't realize how much I missed it here. When I saw the city off the freeway my face just lit up, like I was seeing an old best friend I haven't seen in a awhile. This city sure does grow on you, more so than any other city I've lived in. And believe me I've lived in many.

Oh no, that reminds me I forgot to go to the beach and take those pictures. Oh well. There's alot of beaches around here, real close too. I guess I could go to La Jolla Cove, my favorite, take pictures too. When I have the time for that though. First things first, important stuff comes first. Funtime later.

I was only gone for three months but it seems like I was gone way longer than that. I am just re-adjusting to everything around here again. I am getting used to FOOD, and EATING again. It is sad but true.

Do you believe in past lives? I do, I believe all of us has lived at least once before if not more. The whole subject of it just fascinates me. I've read a few books on the subject, in the metaphysics catagory of course. The stuff I've read in these books does make sense, it does explain alot of things that I have always wondered about. Like why am I so interested in the 1920's era. The books, the movies, the people, the hair styles, the way of dress, the way they spoke, the words they used to use. In a way it's almost like an obesssion. As you can see I do love black and white; photos and movies.

Then there's this interest I have with world war II. It seems like just one day it hit me and I had to now and wanted to know everything about WWII,(it started about 4 years ago) so I went to the library and checked out as many books as I could on the subject. I read and went through every one of them, and I was so intrigued and interested with everything in them; but also at the same time very upset, horrified,etc, at how such a thing could have happened. My obssesion just grows with this war, it doesn't stop. No matter how much I learn about it, I always want to know more. I've seen practically every movie about WWII, so I was thinking about why do I feel this way about a war that happened long before my time. Why are these things on my mind and why do these things interest me? The only answer that I could come up with is that I lived a past life before in that time.

Another thing that I have always been curious about since I was a kid is my being able to tap dance really well without any lessons. My mom used to take me to ballet lessons and I remember one day I got a glimpse of a tap dancing class, and I wanted to do that from then on. No more ballet just tap, but I never got the chance to take the class and I stopped ballet, for reasons unbeknowst to me. I just had this urge to tap, so one day I tried it, and it came so easy to me. I remember being able able to do all the tricks and steps just like in the old movies; when I was a kid I used to rent these videos of Shirley Temple and when the tap dancing scenes would come on I would watch them and try to copy them at the same time and I could do it almost just as perfectly. It seemed to come so natural to me, like second nature.

To me all these wierd, strange, interests seem to be something more than just the average intrigue, curiosity, etc. I think it is something more, due to past lives. I also belive in astrology and with my sign pisces the fish, it says we are the most wise, the most experienced and that we've lived more lives than any other sign. We are the end of the signs and Jesus is considered the begining, he is Aries the Ram.

DEFINITON FOR:  ARIES
Sign Sign, n. [F. signe, L. signum; cf. AS. segen, segn, a sign, standard, banner, also fr. L. signum. Cf. Ensign, Resign, Seal a stamp, Signal, Signet.] (1) A remarkable event, considered by the ancients as indicating the will of some deity; a prodigy; an omen. (2) An event considered by the Jews as indicating the divine will, or as manifesting an interposition of the divine power for some special end; a miracle; a wonder.

Through mighty signs and wonders, by the power of the Spirit of God. --Rom. xv.

It shall come to pass, if they will not believe thee, neither hearken to the voice of the first sign, that they will believe the voice of the latter sign. --Ex. iv. 8.

METAPHYSICS
1) Philosophy. The branch of philosophy that examines the nature of reality, including the relationship between mind and matter, substance and attribute, fact and value.
2) The theoretical or first principles of a particular discipline: the metaphysics of law.
3) A priori speculation upon questions that are unanswerable to scientific observation, analysis, or experiment.
4) Excessively subtle or recondite reasoning.